Fun Giveaway!!!

So, my buddies at Manicure Mommas are having an awesome giveaway! 2 different Sephora by OPI new and unused colors! Go here to check it out! http://www.manicuremommas.com/

Today

Today, I went on a decluttering rampage. Im not done yet, but I am feeling rather refreshed. It nice to get rid of JUNK!

After chores, and snack, Ethan and I are going to clean his room, and then start working on his Rudolph project for school. I found out today that December 18th, I get to take Cam to his class to make gingerbread houses. SCORE! It sounds like so much fun.

Cam, well, Cam survived the day lol. Thats an accomplishment, right? No, but really, she is so smart. She sings, counts, and says her abc's. That child never ceases to amaze me.

Aaaannnndddd Im Back

After a hiatus, I am back. Things have been crazy chaotic, getting ready for Cams Bday, Ethan is starting 1st grade (OMG!!!) and Chris and I are starting school in a few short weeks. We may also have some exciting and wonderful news in the next few weeks (wink wink).

Onto Family news, my Stepmom Melanie is pregnant! I'm dying with excitement.

Hopefully I will be able to update some more!

Devastated...

Well, I have put this off long enough.

3 weeks ago I lost the baby. I had a gut feeling, instinct maybe, from the get go that something wasn't right. I never felt "right".

I had been spotting on and off since around 5 1/2 weeks. I kept having my HCG hormone levels checked, and they were rising and actually quite high! So they got me in for (several) early ultrasounds. The last one was grim. My baby had a genetic defect, where it would not have survived past birth, if even until then.

They couldn't even be for sure if it was alive, as they were never able to get a proper heatbeat reading.

So, I made the heartwrenching decision to have a D&C 1 day before I was to be 9 weeks. I didn't want the baby to be born only to have it suffer. It has taken a lot of praying and crying, and to be honest, I really regret that decision. I should have left it in God's hands, but at that point, I was close to hemmoraging. Be that as it may, I just can't come to terms with this.

This was my 5th miscarriage. And yet all my testing keeps coming back completely normal. Sometimes I don't understand God's plan, I know I shouldn't question it, but this has shaken my faith to the core. What have I done to deserve this much pain? 5 miscarriages!!! 5!!

What could I have possibly done?! I know I was an unwed mother, and I made a lot of mistakes, but I love my babies dearly, and have always worked my butt off and done my best to raise them right. Ethan reads his Little Boy's Bible all the time, I teach them Christianity, IDK. I'm just distraught still, so please excuse my ramblings.

I am sooo greatful for my 2 healthy babies. And I treasure every second with them, and every breath they take. I can't begin to tell you how many night I have lay awake in their room watching them sleep. I guess this has really put things into perspective for me.

I'm sorry this is so Negative Nelly, Im just really sad. And somewhat angry to be honest. This baby wasn't planned, but was sooo wanted and loved. We already had names picked out.
Hunter Daniel for a boy, and Mary Jane for a girl. :)

I'm sure I will be ok. Just not right now. I need to grieve this loss. Please pray that I will recover mentally from this, Im not feeling so strong right now.

Unexpected Blessing

So, Chris and I found out on Thursday night that we are being VERY unexpectedly blessed with Baby #3. When I say unexpectedly, I mean I was on the pill, along with being told that until my endometriosis get taken care of, I probably would not be able to have children. So I guess this truly was meant to be! I am due right around Halloween. I am still waiting for the shock to wear off, but keep us in your thoughts that this all turns out ok!

Ever Have One of Those Days?

I am having a no good, horrible, terrible, really bad day. For no real reason in particular. Cam is dumping things out left and right, but that's normal. I got no sleep, but that's normal. I have cramps, but that's normal. I'm not sure what is making me so cranky, but I have boycotted housework and am instead concentrating on laundry. I know this is boring to read about, but really, my day sucks.

Pregnancy Tag X2

Ethan

1- Where were you when you first found out you were pregnant? At the Dr for my annual checkup

2- Who was with you? My GYN

3- How did you find out that you were pregnant? I went in for my annual, I wasn't late or anything, but came up positive on a urine test.

4- What was your first reaction to finding out you were pregnant? Disbelief. I was on the pill!

5- Your Husbands reaction? Ethans dad was not too happy.

6- Who was the first person you told? My daddy.

7-Did you plan to get pregnant? That would be a negative lol.

8-Was everybody happy for you? Not at first, it took a few months for everyone to get used to it.

9- Did you go out and celebrate? No

10- Did you want to find out the sex? Yep I sure did

11- What was the sex? A boy

12-Did anyone throw you a baby shower? Yes!

13- If yes, who? My mom, Jackie and April.

14- Did you get any outfits at the baby shower that you just knew you weren't going to put on your baby? Yea, I gave them to my cousin

15- How much weight did you gain? Oh boy, 106 ilbs.

16- Did you loose all of the weight that you gained? Yea, and then I got pregnant the day after I fit back into my size 2 jeans. It took me 4 years to lose it!

(17- Did you get a lot of stretch marks? Yea, but they aren't too terrible, and I gone NONE on my stomach

18- What did you crave the most? Burgers and brownies, which I would promptly throw back up

19- Did you crave anything crazy? Nope!

20- Who or what got on your nerves the most? Ethans dad, drove me nuts.

21- Were you married at the time? Nope

22- Did you have any complications during your pregnancy? I had hyperemesis, (puking all day everyday) and preterm labor

23- Where were you when you went into labor? Applebees

24- Did your water break? Not until my c-section

26- Did you go early or late? Early

27- Who was in the room with you when you gave birth? Ethans dad, and the dr's and nurses performing the surgery

28- Was it video taped? Some of it

29- Did you have any drugs for the pain? Yes I had a spinal

30-Did you go Natural or have a c-section? C-section, he was butt first lol

31- What was your first reaction after giving birth? Bawled my eyes out

32- How big was the baby? 6 lbs, 6 oz

33- Did your Husband cry? No

34- What did you name the baby(s)? Ethan Gregory Eyre

35-Did the name have any significance to you? Not exactly, it was the one name we could agree on!

36-Does the baby's name fit? Yes, he is for sure an Ethan

37- Did the baby(s) have any complications? Just a little jaundice

38- How old is your baby today? He will be 6 in 2 months :(

39- When is the next one(s) coming? Maybe in a few years

40- If you could would you do it all over again? You betcha!

Cameron

Ethan
1- Where were you when you first found out you were pregnant? In my bathroom, home from work with a sick Ethan
2- Who was with you? No one
3- How did you find out that you were pregnant? Realized I was a few days late, took a test and it was positive!
4- What was your first reaction to finding out you were pregnant? Excited, then terrified, then really happy!
5- Your Husbands reaction? Over the moon.
6- Who was the first person you told? Chris
7-Did you plan to get pregnant? Yes
8-Was everybody happy for you? For the most part
9- Did you go out and celebrate? Not exactly, we celebrated our own way
10- Did you want to find out the sex? Yep
11- What was the sex? A girl
12-Did anyone throw you a baby shower? Nope
13- If yes, who?

14- Did you get any outfits at the baby shower that you just knew you weren't going to put on your baby?
15- How much weight did you gain? About 24 lbs
16- Did you loose all of the weight that you gained? Yea within a month or so
(17- Did you get a lot of stretch marks? Not any new ones
18- What did you crave the most? Ummm...fruit mostly. And Peanut butter on tortillas.
19- Did you crave anything crazy? Nope!
20- Who or what got on your nerves the most? Having IV's all the time
21- Were you married at the time? Nope
22- Did you have any complications during your pregnancy? I had hyperemesis, had to have a home health nurse come out and change my iv once a week, (puking all day everyday) and preterm labor
23- Where were you when you went into labor? At the mall with my M other-In-Law
24- Did your water break? Yes
26- Did you go early or late? Early
27- Who was in the room with you when you gave birth? Chris and the doctors and nurses
28- Was it video taped? No
29- Did you have any drugs for the pain? Yes I had a spinal
30-Did you go Natural or have a c-section? C-section, tried for a vaginal, but she went into distress
31- What was your first reaction after giving birth? Bawled my eyes out
32- How big was the baby? 4lbs 14oz
33- Did your Husband cry? Yes
34- What did you name the baby(s)? Cameron Kasey Verry
35-Did the name have any significance to you? Not exactly

36-Does the baby's name fit? Absolutly
37- Did the baby(s) have any complications? Just a little jaundice
38- How old is your baby today? 18 months
39- When is the next one(s) coming? Maybe in a few years
40- If you could would you do it all over again? You betcha!